Sunday, August 16, 2015

Of Old photographs and New

On a humid Sunday afternoon in July, Mother had put him to task of cleaning the old cupboard but it had now been put aside as he stumbled upon an old album of photographs. "Mom, who is this? And this? And that person behind Mama?"

Every flip of the album leaves posed a new barrage of questions.

They were soon joined by father who was just up post his afternoon siesta that he rarely got to enjoy.

The three were so immersed in the photographs, that they didn't realise how twilight crept into the room and how quickly it faded and it was time to switch on the lights.

Had someone seen them, sit together huddled up over those photographs, looking at old memories, he surely would've taken a photo himself. But what then? It would lie in the device memory till it was full. Or go up on social media. Or be transferred to a portable hard disk. And get lost among the millions of irrelevant unnecessary repetitive images in  colour, B&W, sepia, autumn, mayfair, X-PRO, X-PRO  II and what not.

Many years later, their grandchildren wouldn't huddle up like that over an album on a lazy afternoon and wonder who these people were and what they did.

An old photo then would be a photo taken two years ago. Maybe three. Who would then look at the fifty year old photos of great grandfather dressed up for the photo-session in the old house in the village that was sold to a builder once the village became a thriving town?

Who would look at the twenty year old photos taken in marriages of the grandparents?

Would anyone?

Would you?

Or would you just let them lie in the loft where old photos are spoilt beyond recognition. Or would you let them just be till there is nobody in the know who recognizes the smiling photos of the well dressed people in old houses.

Maybe those photos will just go away. But the photos you take today, will not. Sixty years later after you've died a peaceful death, maybe your grandchild will open up your facebook profile to see what you were like when you were twenty-five.

And they'll laugh at the immature status updates you posted.

And they'll Like your profile picture where you're actually posing but want it to seem candid. #nofilter

But it still wouldn't replicate the charm of poring over old photo albums with characters who have started fading away from the photos and your memories too. Sitting together as a family and trying to remember who the lady in the green saree was. Or looking at the old man in the old house smiling proudly for the photograph.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

The Amicable Break Up

He feared. Feared that he might really start liking her. She was expecting this. She had almost seen it coming.

She said she wasn't romantically inclined. Not that it was about him. in general. Even at the peak of romantic involvement she would just only really like someone.

She never missed loving anyone.

All he missed was someone loving him.

Wasn't it a road that was set with obstacles? Clearly!

Yet they had taken it a couple of months ago just to see where it goes.

He didn't feel like he thought he should. But he wanted to see whether he can truly choose who he loves.

It wasn't altogether true. But he did have expectations. He knew how he wanted it to be. She was just OK about it. Happy because it was so hassle free. He clearly wasn't going to get what he wanted.

He too liked it being hassle free. But the little things he wanted, were probably hassles, for her.

They sat there, waiting for the waffles with banana syrup they had ordered. Hiding behind the nervous chatter, as if it was a translucent glass wall. Through which you can see the shapes, just don't know who exactly it is behind the wall.

Till he asked, " What else?"

That just broke the glass wall and they were out in the open. He broached the subject. But there were no questions and answers. There were explanations. and justifications. from both sides. As though both had a predecided agenda.

And it coincided.

She was ok with ending it right there. He was a bit appalled that he could have so little impact on someone in two months. He asked her to ponder over it a bit, "Go home, Think about what it means. I don't want us to get carried away and just because both agree, go ahead and take a random call."

To be honest, that was probably how it had started.

As they were leaving the cafe, she thought out loudly, "I wonder if it is a bad thing that I don't feel emotionally and romantically involved. Will Miss it?"

"You don't like ice cream", he said. "Doesn't mean you'll want it just because you see someone else have it."

She nodded in agreement.

As he held the glass door open for her, making way to the outside world of unconditioned air, he mused, "And I am just a guy sitting in an ice cream shop, giving out free scoops."

She smiled, knowing that she didn't want any more ice cream after the waffles.

They confirmed that they would still be friends. Joked about a few things peculiar to each other. And parted ways.

He glanced back to see her walk into her colony. She didn't.

He smiled thinking of the cliche - don't cry because it is over. Smile that it happened.

He waited at the road crossing as he couldn't see clearly due to the wetness welling up in his eyes.

After a moment he crossed the road walked up to the tapri and bought two smokes.





Sunday, March 1, 2015

Buses and Baggage

It all started from an old photograph of the bus on Route number 315. That is when I started grasping the true amount of baggage that these numbers carry with them.

I just commented on some old facebook photo and bang! It was in everyone's news feed. Someone fired a tirade about how severely he hates the bus. Several others reminisced about how, now sitting with an H1b waiting for the green card, they once sat at the bus stop waiting for this bus. Old habits die hard, eh? And so much more. I had my own memories that I ascribed to it.

It was like our memories are neatly classified and filed into cabinets and each one has a number.

Yes! The Bus Route number. I will call it Bus Number henceforth because that's what I've always called it.

Let me just try to pull out those cabinets for a peek and see what I find.



110 - VIT. It's like the four years on engineering come rushing at you when you think of 110. And that is a vast volume of memories.

212 - Adarsh Classes. Class tenth coaching classes. Some parts of Bombay Talent Search and some irritating times. Also Ruia a bit but those are a different set of buses. The bus that goes to Manjar's place.

1 - The route of the bus being similar to that of 212 I can almost group the two but I wont. Bus no. 1 also reminds me of the time I went to CST for some aptitude test and I returned home to find that a very close friend's father had passed away. 1 & 212 also bring to mind the era of IIT JEE coaching -another period of significance. 

86 - Deserves a mention for the 86 effect. The largest number of cute girls would always be on the 86 and no other bus. The route is what merits such passengers I guess.

85, 27, 521 and more importantly 315 - All these relate to the two year Ruia Junior College Stint. 315 had great strategic importance know only to a select few. But the bus even today inspires stories, rants, smiles and random blog posts.

33 - This takes me back to the MBA prep days at Juhu.

66 - The double-decker to Lamington Road reminds me of my electronics project and my attempts at autonomous robotics

83, 84 - These remind me of my first relationship. Funny how these are quarantined in this cabinet. I've never even been a frequent commuter on these.



But you may argue that I can do this only because I've lived my life in a relatively small part of a small city called Mumbai. And I agree. It is just symbolism that you use to number the cabinets. It could be different for you. But I bet that you have at least a few bus number memories. 

You still disregard this as not a foolproof system of organising memories. I agree again. In fact, I don't know what to do with these last two years of B-School in a faded reddish building near Churchgate. 

I have an idea though.

I think I'll name that cabinet : 11:37 Virar Fast